When I first began to imagine having a farm, I was working for the City of Austin, feeling uninspired and knowing in my heart that my talents and passions were being underutilized and unrealized. I recently found a notebook from that time, one side filled with meeting minutes, and the adjacent face filled with thumb nail calculations of what it would take to run a successful small farm. I began to soul-search, asking myself daily, "What do you want?" in terms of what sort of life I wanted to lead, what would make me happy. At the time I was volunteer managing a garden and greenhouse at the American Botanical Council, and it was always difficult to tear myself away to go make money elsewhere.
As the answer to that question formed, and crystalized, I distilled it again and again until I was left with this gem: "I want to spend all my time with plants and with people" That was my path to fulfillment.
3 years later, I live on this small acreage, with animals and plants. And it is SO CHALLENGING, cobbling together the money to get this small project or that small piece of a larger project completed. But I have stayed the course.
Last week, as my Kickstarter campaign flatlined and appeared, for all practical purposes to be dead in the water, I began coming up with contingency plans. I turned it over, asking myself if I was trying to raise too much, if it was too close to the holidays...
What I did not do was to beat myself up. I did not take it personally, never once telling myself that my project wasn't good enough or that no one cared about it because they didn't care about me. I was proud of my maturity, and prepared myself to fail at something with grace and poise, to persevere.
In the past 48 hours, I have raised over 12 thousand dollars. Over the past month, 310 generous, amazing people have offered me their support. Some of these people are my dearest friends, some are family. Others are friends, acquaintances, and still others are complete strangers.
I have had so many people contact me to offer labor, knowledge, partnership, and friendship, that I still feel as if I am dreaming. I am beyond touched, beyond honored, I am thrilled to the bone, I am electrified by these incredible gestures.
This campaign has given me what would have taken me
the better part of a year (at the rate I've been going) several years to set aside and save.
Almost more incredible- it has given me a sense of enthusiasm, duty, and renewed vigor that I am in the right place doing the right thing.
I am drunk on love and hope and joy and the feeling of being supported by so many hands, of touching so many threads stretching across so much earth...
Thank you for being a part of my journey. Even if you are only reading this, you are now holding one of the threads making up the fabric of my life.
Thank you. Forever and always, thanks.
We are going to do beautiful things together.
(this is the happiest day of my life)